hi hi

well...quite a lot has happened since the last time i wrote.for one thing...im now 22 years old!! YIPPEEE YAYY!

and another thing is...my dearest came back for my birthday ...DOUBLE YIPPEE YAY!!
lol

it was really sweet of him...hahahaha....i felt all warm and nice when we went to the airport to meet him.it really is a nice feeling to see him again after those few weeks apart.hehehe...

well,we spent a rather nice weekend of togetherness...i felt all at the top of the world...but theres this nudging feeling at the back of my mind that keeps on reminding me that i shouldnt be too happy as he will still be going back to sibu today.

sighhh...

anyhow, i shouldnt be moaning at today when i could be looking forward to the next time i could see him isnt it? or perhaps the next time i hear his voice on the phone...hahahaha
sometimes...it is these times that we r apart which makes our relationship a new BOOST.

i've noticed that when we r together, things tend to be taken for granted. be it with him or me. i tend to get angry at little little things...and i may waste away our nite out with a silly argument over nothing and so on. but when we get together after being apart, its like every single second we spend together means much more.

i know this is silly....hahahaha but i was a tiny wee bit shy for the first few days when he came bck last weekend..lol...its like we r this one new couple who just started going out together...hahahahaha...its a rather nice feeling, but i find it weird how fast i get used to not being with some1 and how slow i get used to NOT being with some1... haahahah
ahhh...the ironies of life and love ;)

ahh ahhh....saturday nite is here at last and here i am ... lonely and bored...hahaha
i think i should take back my words tat i taught allen...i once told him that only 'su ku kia' (i.e IDIOTS) stay home on a saturday nite ...lol

wellll...at least i did go out for a dinner and some shopping..but theres not much shopping to be done with just rm10 in my purse anyway...oh well. i bought a box of green tea anyway...hoping to slim down ...wahahahah

hhmmmm...im just glad that a gal has got loving parents and loving sisters and not forgetting loving friends...love u all! *muaks* yea ... its true that my dearest is my soulmate and all ..but sometimes u need ur family and ur gal frens at times like these. they are the ppl who brought me out shopping and for dinner and lunches...ohhh if not for these lovely people, my days would be even more miserable

IM REALLY GLAD! :P

oh my gawddd....streamyx is DAMN slow tonite...someone or something should REALLY do something to this so called broadband service. as malaysians we r really quite pitiful to have a broadband service such as this. sometimes its up, sometimes its down ... sometimes its not up and not down but its as slow as dial up!!!!!

its really pi$$ing me off!!! and they even have the nerve..the very nerve to charge us every mth for this crappy service! why, i know some ppl from other countries even get broadband service for FREE!!!

now im gona click on this PUBLISH POST button and i m expecting blogger.com to display a message saying "MSG NOT POSTED" ....so wish me luck , will

HI AGAIN!

lets c wats the big event today...........hhmm.... ohhhhh ...my 2 dearest colleague just got back frm their trip to KL...and best of all they brought me gifts ...YAYYYY...

my dearest popo aka ah ma aka poponyuk aka fluffy aka grandma and many others...(the list of nicknames we managed to give her are just countless! i hope i don get cekikssss...must keep in mind not to let her know abt this blog) gave us......................*Drum rolls* FINGER PUPPETS!! yippee!

even tho i was given the duckie finger puppet which i tried to avoid taking in the first place...i still love it (*WHISPER* i still think it really looks like fel... 'x') well here it is..say hello to my duckie...duckie this is bloggie ..bloggie this is duckie:

[OOPS...sth went wrong with the pic uploading...oh well...bloggie will just hv to say hi to duckie without any pics]

It is now sitting comfortably in between my speaker n my monitor in office...wahahahaha

hi again,

well im very sad to announce to u 2day ... that i've ...ummmmmmm......hehehe [whisper] cried.
You would understand wat im talking abt if u've read my blog yesterday. oh mi gosh...and to think that ive finally managed to get a grip on myself and be all tough abt it...

argghhhh....

its all his fault, if you hadnt asked me whether or not i missed you, i would have managed to pull through a whole day without any tears...ahhh n to think it was only 0ur first day apart and already ive shed tears...grrr its an embarassment! :(

well well...at least the bz day at work this morning did do some trick in helping me get my mind off it. my day started off pretty 'WELL'. to start things off, there was this training for the users without any notification to us developers and oh wow...did our system perform 'impressively'! o_O

at least hv the courtesy to tell us that theres gonna be a training...oh gawd!! the training version of our system was already in shambles and there it is....around 20-30 users using it at the same time! u couldnt blame it for displaying so many bugs, u kno??? hehe

and the other thing was this bugger of a client who kept on pestering us for changes and more changes everyday! come on... we r only human. i doubt she can do it anyway, so much for being oh so experienced in IT...NOT! (i hope she doesnt blog...)

ooops...gonna be going to kch fest..yippeee.... sorry but i will haf to sign off here..will continue later...i will try... :D hope kch fest will at least cheer up my down-cast and lonely heart...sob

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10th august 05

HIE! as promised, i will continue the blog that ive attempted to complete last nite .. hehe.
now where was i....ohhh...kch fest was ok ..altho it was blahdi HOT!!! i had fried ice cream...MMmMmMmM and little bites of taiwan sausage from my dear sis who so kindly brought her little lonely sister to kch fest...wahahaha.

and it was quite amazing that i really felt better after going there! HONEST! i dont understand it either...could it be the laughters i've shared with my sister or could it be the yummy chevrolet spark on display there ..SLURP
either way...im glad it has made me a happier girl..hehe

and surprisingly, my good jabs survived till now...i no longer feel lonely n near to tears when i think of my dearest..hehehe... :) thats good isnt it?

hhmm...wat else happend ytd...OH! ytd...some1 made me skip my diet on yoghurt and oatmeal biscuits for lunch.hehehe...well, im glad she so kindly offered me...im really grateful to pei-pei for being such a dear friend. she n her sweet bf offered to bring me to mcd's on the promise of a HAPPY MEAL for me. but even without the happy meal...im oredi HAPPY.. LOL!

however, upon my reaching my office...i saw my yoghurt sulking n pouting in a corner
here...i managed to take a photo of her ... errrrrrrrrr or HIM? who knows?




sigh...i could do nothing else but to stick his (oops) his/her sulking tub into my bag

well tats all i could remember about yesterday...c u in 2day's blog then :P

ya ya .. i know i've already made an entry today...but i just couldnt help but say that blogging really has made me feel better.

well...i kno, he is supposed to be my soulmate and all that and i should tell him everything without any reservations. but, i think it woulndt be proper confiding in someone who needs to concentrate on his job rite now with all my unavoidable sadness and emptiness within me right now.

writing in this blog sure have made my day brighter... thanks bloggie and whoeever it is who is listening.... umm or rather ... reading out there ;)

I dont know if any of you could have noticed it, but i've been walking around the whole day with a very heavy heart. He has finally left for Sibu after my weeks of emotional preparation for this :)

well, overall, i gez i did pretty well...no tears ... YET..hahaha. well to any of you out there, if there ever was a need for ur loved ones to go elsewhere for quite some time, my advice to you is....DO NOT SEND HIM/HER OFF AT THE AIRPORT.

haahahah trust me! for the safety of your emotions ... do not do that! it will wreak havoc to your day.. LOL! this time, i didnt manage to send him off cos the flight was soooo early this morning. compared to the last time he left, i was more emotionally stable this time...hehehe

however, i still get this weird, umm...ticklish ...feeling in my heart whenever i think of him :P
isit love sick???hahahahaha

oh well..enough abt this stuff, or some1 *ahem* will start to say that all i ever talk about in my blog is abt my dearest...hehehehe

i just managed to download a Yahoo game called Tradewinds. its pretty cool, reminds me of harvest moon....where u do all the buying and selling and u get to earn some money and then u can expand ur properties and buy more n more ship. oh ya, it also reminds me of Monkey Island, yup pretty much reminds me of that.

But its really getting to my nerves how i would need to search for the stupid crack in order to play the game for more than 60 min! *groan*

i've also tried my hands on knitting...and GOSH!! is it hard!! sigh...i just couldnt get the hang of it...oh nooo..i musnt go back on my words..I MUST I MUST learn how to knit :(

Gloomy Days

For the past 3 mornings,i've been greeted by a feeling of gloominess and dread the minute I woke up from bed. I've always dread for Mondays to come (as always) but not as much as this week's Monday.

Oh..I wish that the weekend would never pass but that is impossible isnt it ? unless i could do some magic like Harry Potter...wahahaha

Oh well...dread as i may, it will still happen and a new beginning it shall be. Our relationship for the past 1 year or so seems to be like a story book. It is marked by chapters of new stories, new lifestyles, new experiences everyday. and with the turn of every chapter, a new lesson is to be learnt as we get closer to the next chapter and the next and the next... and many more chapters i hope :)

ohh...and i HATE the song "I'm Leaving on a Jet Plane" !!... for some obvious reasons...hahaha

well...here goes...my very first post in my very new blog. this is not exactly my first blog actually, but my first one doesnt keep me quite anonymous actually, so i've decided to create a new blog. i feel much more comfortable being anonymous...i can write anything i want without caring that so n so might read about her and i will end up with no friends at all. but then again, it all depends, i might one day reveal my blog to few of my closer friends...well, what fun's a blog if no one reads it rite?

tonite...i think i will make my very own time table to fill up my time in the next few weeks or maybe months. time is running short and i should make the most out of these 4 days before he leaves. hahaha...how i wish we ladies wont be so emotional at times. then, i would be able to act tough and perhaps spend my every waking hour playing games or summat and i wouldnt even realised he's not by my side??? well....that's just how we ladies are created arent we? we...the sensitive , feeling creature.

thats how God makes sure our children and our husband will be taken care well of, we can empathise, and we can feel ... but im not saying guys wont make good parents.... omg ..wat am i talking about...this is going nowhere...so much for my first blog .. *sigh*

ok then...i will cut the crap n go to the thing that ive wanted to do the whole day...a timetable for meself to busy up my hours. there's this list of stuffs that ive been raring to do but which ive pushed to the back of my mind so that i could spend some extra time with him (omg..i sound desperate)...

1. Build the Victorian Doll House which was supposed to be my Christmas present and was supposed to be completed months ago but unfortunately is still in its box now which is fast gathering dust.
2. Paint it PINK!!! ... or mebe not
3. make some innee weeny furnitures for my doll house from God-knows-wat
4. Maybe.... just maybe....install some mini lightings for my doll house and keeping my fingers cross i don burn down the hopefully-completed-doll-house
5. ok..wells thats enough about doll houses...wat else........ OHHHHH.. complete my knitting! hahahaha...i still cant get the hang of it. it is reallly complicated (well,at least to me) and i've been visiting knitting web sites now n then during work hours (shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh) but i will try...hehe
6. Play yahoo games ... oh YES!
7. OH!... strengthen my musical talents...*ahem* my musical theory book is also gathering dust in my book rack.the dust is so thick, it will make every1 in the neighbourhood cough if i try to dust it off :D i hope i still remember how to draw a quaver, and a err.... a.........a crotchet? is that it? and i thought it was a knitting term...wahahah...now u kno i really need revision on my musical theory
8. Learn mandarin. aaaahhhh...mandarin....ive been getting short lectures by someone.............hmmm...on not being able to write chinese characters what with me being a chinese and all. its not my fault isit??? :P
9. and... I WANNA MAKE POM POMS ... yayyy!!! just in case you dont know whats a pom pom ...

10. oh! theres still 1 more...CHAT ONLINE...
11. CALL UP MY DARLING NOW N THEN ... wahahahaahahhahah..how could i forget this
12. BLOGGINGGGGGGG...hopefully on updates of my err...PROPOSED CRAFTS

So there it is , my top ten list to BUSYDOM. deep down i know one or two or maybe 3 or 4 or 5 or maybe more will be forgotten 'x'

Ta dahhh..and there's my very first blog and the beginning of more blogs...hope that u guys will hear from me soon... *hee*